I have to admit that I am filled with anger, hurt, sorrow/sadness as I type this. Right, I had no right to be behind a wheel in the rageful demeanor I was feeling, but I had two venting boards to calm me down. So in a feeble attempt to distract me so I can get to sleep before 2 AM, I want to list some things I want to accomplish or do or WILL BE DOING in the next year. Some of these things (I put them in italics) I came up with yesterday while at the beach goofing off.
* Call prayer watch at Calvary Costa Mesa on a Sunday evening at 1030 pm asking them to pray for the bitterness and anger to lessen. Oh wait, that happened tonight...
* To lose my last 30 pounds. I give myself one year from today (mas o menos - more or less). The final 30 is the hardest to do, but I have many friends who will hold me accountable for this. Plus, I can lean on God for help. So far I have done good, no huge issues with foods I shouldn't eat, though I probably could have passed on the pumpkin pie on Thursday. I have to worry about the stress eating/emotional eating based on the above paragraph, though.
* Go to a Dodger game. And I will be doing this, though I have some details that need to be worked out with some friends before I know which game it will be. But, I definitely don't want it to be against the Giants.
* I would LOVE to go on a helicopter ride. Don't know how this will happen, but I would love to do this.
* Parasailing. I am deathly afraid of heights, but I figure that since I have been in a hot air balloon already, being only 250-500 feet in the air isn't too big of a deal. This will obviously have to wait for 6 months.
* Snow shoeing with the advanced group at Saddleback church. I couldn't do it two years ago because I was self conscious of my weight. I couldn't do it last year because it was right smack in the middle of my recovery from the gall bladder surgery.
* ICE SKATING !!! I have never been. NEVER. There is an outdoor ice skating rink at Irvine Spectrum every year about this time and there is a year round ice skating rink in Aliso Viejo.
*Whale watching. I always want to go every March, but I never have any friends who want to go with me. Either they cancel at the last minute or just can't ever find anyone interested. Maybe I could get Katie and Matthew to come, I bet they'd love it.
* Alcatraz. Enough said? Probably won't do that till Feb on President's Day weekend. And I would do this on a one day affair. Leave at the crack of dawn on Amtrak from San Juan to Burbank and fly to Oakland and take BART to the wharf, visit Alcatraz and then do everything in reverse. :) Mom said she has always wanted to take BART. So even though I already have, I'd like to do it again in this context.
* Wear a sparkly black and silver dress to a Christmas party. Oh wait, that will be accomplished on Sat Dec 1. :) I cannot wait. My sister better help me cake the makeup on or my face will be red all night, though it will be anyway. I am so majorly insecure about this dress... the flab on my upper arms is causing me grief... not the fact that it's sleeveless.
Ok, I'm much more calm than I was, though the anxiety about the party will keep me up now I am sure. I'm so pathetic.
2 comments:
Whale watching?
OMgosh! I've always wanted to go!My father took us once but we never saw anything. We were bummed.
Hey...lets go!
The two times I've been (grade school), I've always seen something... even if it's "just" a bunch of dolphins playing in the wake of the boat. I'll keep my eyes open for when the trips are or I can go down to Dana Point Harbor Sat morning and ask them. Newport is where I went before, they are probably better to go with.
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